Transmuting The Past

 My perception and memory seem to remember that most people don't like to open the door to the past, because they don't feel comfortable analyzing it for fear that they will realize they wished they did things differently. I understand that. Many people I have shared their reflection with, have seemed to automatically get sad when they hear an opportunity they had or have for growth. I believe this is because they are identifying with their experiences, identifying as the emotions they feel in regard to their experiences. I have empathy for this, I really do, because the nature of coming into this World is that temporary situations, circumstances, and emotional attachments are easily perceived as identity. But.

The solution to this is to breathe, allow the space in between the words, detach from identifying the experiences we had, and then learn from them. It's okay if that makes you uncomfortable. But let's think about this for a second. If you believe that everyone is a mirror, showing us what we're meant to observe and assess, then you might also agree that we can learn from the past. You see, thinking about the past isn't the problem. Playing the same stories over and over and stopping when we run into an undesirable emotion, that's the problem. Focusing on guilt and shame and disempowering emotions is the problem. The solution is to play through the whistle, meaning, regardless of the emotion we feel, keep going until a solution is reached that will help the results in our life change. Everything is cause and effect, so if we want different effects, outcomes, feelings, etc. we must analyze the causes and learn our lessons. Go ahead and do a child's pose to declutter that tenseness in your neck, shoulders, and chest. Take your time.

So how do we transmute the past? Let's say we're thinking about a situation in which we feel that we allowed previous "trauma" to bring forth an unconscious response or behavior, regrettable? Sure. But what if we fully accepted that we did that. Hey Self, we weren't able to gain awareness in the moment in order to respond differently, and I accept that. I fully accept that. Because, all the social media, hustler's ambition, striving shit aside, what does it probably mean if we subconsciously were in fight, flight, freeze or hide? What did our nervous system believe was happening? That we were face to face with someone or a situation that mirrored the same one from the "trauma", right? So okay, we hadn't reconciled that "trauma" yet. Is that such a bad thing? What if we were being protected? What if, if we had already returned that part of us to feeling wholeness, what if we would've made a different decision that completely changed our course? What if we were being protected from a path or a person not meant for us? Take a little bit and just let that soak in, if you agree that is. If you don't agree with that, then likely you'll stop reading and that's no worries. But if you do agree, take a little bit and let that soak in. 

I know this probably goes against so much of what trauma informed therapy and all the mental health professionals might say, I don't know maybe, but this is a realization that came to me. And it gives us complete acceptance over where we were at in every single moment of our journey, doesn't it. "Oh man, if I had already done the healing I would've made a different decision." I'm not interested in that. And it's okay if you disagree. Now yes we can always improve, and I believe commentary as such from those close to us is a gift, to be appreciated. But I'm also all about self-acceptance for the past whenever possible, coming back to Self, and trusting the journey. This gets us there for sure. Complete acceptance of the past, every single thing we said, did, etc. Now if you did some heinous shit, I'm not really referring to that lol. I still wish you well and I'm sure a ton of people who've done some heinous stuffs are changing the world for the better now but I'm not touching that one hah. But for everything else, this seems to do the job. 

So now, everything we ever did, we ever said, where we were at in our healing journeys, all of it, poof, resolved. Everything was for a reason; it happened exactly how it was mean to. But we still didn't avoid feeling the feelings, so now we got this pent-up energy right? So how do we transmute it? We take all of that energy, we feel it in our gut, and visualize the life we want to build. We hold that space with gratitude and excitement for what we are building. We supercharge our new life and, understand that every "missed" opportunity, every time we "woulda coulda shoulda", happened just like it was meant to, and the energy that went dormant from not doing what we would do now? That aversion to what we did? We visualize it supercharging the manifestation, even speeding it up, because now with all of the realizations of what we would do now presented the same situations, we won't be experiencing any of the hold ups, the "delays", the internal aversions to not living authentically. Those are all washed now. 

Bust out your journal and start describing what your ideal life looks like. Feel it, and allow all of these feelings from the past to supercharge how grateful we are that we have a new opportunity to build, a new day to create something in our image, give thanks to the Universe, God if you believe, your spirit team if you believe, and yourself, for staying in the present and birthing something that will help everyone on the planet. Cuz no matter how many souls our creations touch, the ripple out effect is the exact cause that helps create the impact needed to cause monumental shifts for all of humanity.